June 14th, 2013

Money grows from my bum.....

Over $100,000.  I don't have that kind of money!


Oh it gets better. I called the Specialist's office to speak to someone about the benefits of my insurance. Only 50% coverage. That's it. Just like the other surgery I had. I have so many unpaid medical bills as is. I'm living pay check to check already. I have collectors calling me trying to collect the money that grows from my bum. I don't have it. The woman I spoke to at the doctor's office told me she'd get back with me for exact price that I'd have to pay. You could hear the tone in her voice that suggested this was crappy insurance. I AGREE!


What am I going to do? If I don' t have the surgery I will be disabled when I am older. I am just corroding  away. My pain is getting unbearable and all I take is Tylenol. I'm popping them like M&M's lately. Bet my liver looks great! 


All my boyfriend can do is feel sorry for me. That's it. What good does that do? I love him though and he has mentioned to me that he thinks I'm depressed. I think he's right. I'm finding it hard to smile. Even at my son.  I know this is not the end of the world. Some people have it way worse. That's why I can continue searching for an answer. I will not give up. I will not give in. No matter how much I'm in pain. 

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