June 20th, 2013

My boss said there are no positions available for me as of now. So in other words, I have no idea if I'll have a job when my surgery is over and my healing time passes. I understand that you can not just create a job for me I mean, I am just  a nobody to your company. I'm replaceable. 

The surgical coordinator called me as well. I booked the surgery for September 26th but my Mom will be out of town for something that was planned a long time ago so I am going to move it. Probably sometime in October.

Today when I booked it, it was like it was becoming real. A date was set.... I cried and cried. I could have cried more but I was at work. Luckily, I did not break down until after the patients and my boss left. I am trying to be strong but it's wearing thin. Very thin. Not to mention that I will probably have to drop my online college classes. It took me about 10 years to go back to school and now all this stuff is going on.

Today is not a good day.